"It's okay to be scared. Being scared means you're about to do something really brave."
I don't think I was ever more scared than the day I had to move to England. I have moved to England in September 2017 at just 19. I remember thinking how crazy I was since I didn't feel like an adult quite yet. A year and a half later, this has been the best journey so far.
I grew up being very close with my family, so moving to Ireland at the age of eight was difficult for me. I got the same feeling when I was moving to England because let's face it: I was 19, I didn't know how to adult (and still don't fully understand it at 22!). After moving here I had to learn so many new things and take care of myself. I mean, it's not as if I didn't do that back in Ireland, but now I didn't have anyone to hold my hand along the way. I was by myself. In saying that, I actually met Jake and we lived in the same flat but you must understand that even though he was there, it wasn't the same as having your family with you.
There was nobody there to help me cook, do the laundry or clean my room. I was by myself. I called my parents with some silly questions yet I knew they will be willing to help. After a while, I started getting used to the whole 'adulthood.'
How has my life changed since being here?
Don't get me wrong, I miss my family every day but I feel like I am finally adjusting to the fact that I won't be living with them forever. I visit them as often as I can and they visit me, but I think I am finally at the stage where I am happy where I am. Settling in was definitely difficult for me, but I am glad I overcame that barrier.
I am so much more responsible that I ever was. I have to make sure I have enough money for everything, I have to go to the doctors by myself; there are just a couple of thing I took for granted when I lived at home.
I am in my happy place. I know for sure England is not the place I want to live for the rest of my life, but it's a good start. I live in Leicester and it has such a cultural atmosphere that it allows me to have a look at different countries and places that I want to visit in the near future.
I learnt to understand what it is like living with another person; your soul mate. I mean. it can be difficult at times but at the end it is definitely worth it. I am more open to new possibilities. I am more aware of where I want to be in five years time and what I have to do in order to achieve my life goals.
Moving countries at 19 was the most scary and wild thing I have done, but it surely is one of the best things to ever happen to me.